Sunday, January 18, 2009
"Whee..a new book!"

Aha, bought a new book yesterday! It's been ages since I've bought a new book..the last time I bought one was an assessment book for the 'A' levels. This one is titled "How to talk to ANYBODY". Granted, a book the thickness of your average paperback is not going to provide much of a significant guide to the complex spoken and unspoken communications between two conversing homosapiens. That can only be acquired through experience. However the book did serve as a useful reminder to some of the basic elements of conversation. Which I'm not going to reveal here because it cost me $23.60!!!!! Muhahaha!!! Hopefully it works, I'll try it soon enough..

I tried this cool ionic footspa thingy thing thing yesterday as well. What I was told it does is that it supercharges the water with ions. In turn, these ions draw out various toxins from your body. Mine was pretty clear, which I think meant that mine was pretty healthy. My dad and mum's foot tub went kind of murky dark orange.. Eeeww..they had been working later for the past week which kind of wreaked havoc on their interal organs. Heya I guess this thingy thing thing works!!!

It seems as though Pamela has found herself a boyfriend..and Yen Shan's going to chide me if he sees this statement because I think it happened quite long ago..What can I say..I don't follow trends..They make quite a cute couple actually. Hopefully he knows how to cook for her..she eats tons of junk crap >.> and yet somehow never gains weight..envious..

Not much else has happened so far except being trapped in a ratcage for 2 weeks straight..Yawwnn..almost..ALMOST..1 year more to freedom..

Friday, January 2, 2009
"WOW? BAK = Back at keyboard"

Woah it has been so long since i last had an entry, back to waaayyyyyy before going in. I does hopes mine Engrish sui2 zhun3 is ups to standards. Ah who am i kidding, man..spending so much time around dolts really does wonders for language ability. All those years of tuition gone to waste..

Aye aye, starting to feel tired again, somehow this feeling creeps over whenever i starton anything to do with brainwork..again another side effect of unwilling service -.-. Oh the agony..actually the 14 months ain't so bad, the problem is knowing that others have less than a year left.

There's a curious phenomenon that I just recently discovered. Somehow or rather, jokes that I used to find hilarious, even those directed at me have become rather annoying and irritating. Could this be a sign of maturity and growth? Or pettiness and touchiness? Seems to be the latter to me, but I cannot really be too sure.

Time to recap the past 8 months of gruelling activities. Actually when I think back about it, the physical portions were not that tough, in fact they were pretty fun. I was always blessed with a good section but bad bed buddies (to people who don't know what I'm talking about, this would sound really wrong >.>). But yeah, one was an ACSAS*HO*E and the other was just plain quiet. Advanced training was really fun actually, and from what I heard before I fell out, it was not as tough as rumored.
Come to think of it, my life in here is plagued with misfortune. In the sense that whereever I go, the top tier is always replaced with AS*HO*Es. So my life is always permanently tough. My sis says I should open up my mind more, which is true, but those 2 at the top really ARE bad bad people. Oh well, I'm stuck here make the best of it.

New Year's day was well..boring..the only good thing that came out of it was that I went WOW. I've only done that 3 times in my life. The funniest part of it all? It happened at a goreng pisang stall :D Went there again today but left the place disappointed awww....never mind I'll pop by again some other day..ooosh I'm not going to let myself down again!!!

My grandma just went to a better place about hours ago. I do wish her well, but I don't really have any emotional attachments (i.e I don't feel sad). I am not going to attend any of the rituals/ proceedings unless absolutely necessary. I do agree that I should be there for my pops but I really do not fancy going through all these for the deceased. If you wanted to treasure and respect them, you should have done so when they were alive. Back in my grandma's place, all my aunts and uncles were speaking to her..shouldn't they have done all these when she was still around? I mean..sheesh..what is the point fo speaking to everybody except the person you intend to convey the message to? Zhiming said it might be because the person might still be around..hmmm my cousin's dogs did act a little weird..

Ah..I suddenly have a change of heart. I suppose what my aunts and uncles were doing were simply saying their last words..more to reminiscise and close the chapter than to cling onto the past. I really admired my dad tonight, even though he loved my grandma dearly and was the most fillal son there could ever be, he shed nought a tear tonight. Even through the immense sadness his figure was still one of strength and dignity, unwavering.

It's getting harder and harder to stave off the loneliness it seems, yeah well..everyone will say there's someone for everyone..still..hurts to wait..>.< Punyo punyo punyo~~~

Wednesday, April 2, 2008
"And my Deathnote personality quiz..Raito Yagami"

Haha turns out i'm 80% like Raito Yagami. Hmmm true enough, in my eyes this world is corrupt and overpopulated, it could do without a few people, or maybe lots of people :D However criminals would not be the only targets in my Note, corporate bullies as well and people whose faces generally annoy Mmmmmmmmmmmme.
Haiz this world is turning into shit I just saw my neighbour, a zha bor around Sec 1 or 2 enter the lift with a Nu2 Tu3, or was it Da1 Bian4? I think it's the latter one, ya fits the description more aptly. I saw that guys face, granted he was good looking but I also saw the "I have so gotten into this girl's pants" smirk he gave when was not facing her. Tsk I so wanted to grab his b**** and wedgie him with them. In case you are wondering or lost, here is an equation:
Horny playful Da1 Bian4 + zha bor X (Both of them are around Sec 2) + Entering the lift to go the lassy's house = Baby. SINGAPORE IS ALREADY OVERFLOWING AT THE SEAMS WITHOUT THE LIKES OF YOU SCUM MAKING IT WORSE. On the other hand, to be fair to the guy, the girl is also stupid (and slutty) enough to invite chaos into her life. Still..I relish in the fact that mental (and hopefully physical) anguish soon follows such callous behaviour. And as usual, the guy will get away scott-free, the girl will cry and hate all men, she will incite hatred of all men among her girlfriends, they will all become lesbians and the remaining guys suffer from a lack of female partners and turn gay. Tadaa! Perfect Doomsday scenario :) I mean, why do girls/ women/ females choose guys that they obviously know will hurt them in the future? Granted some guys are totally good at concealing their inner demons but most are just totally blatant, one look and you can tell he is a f***er, literally and figuratively.
It totally irks me so seeing gangs of Nu2 Tu3 and Da1 Bian4 roaming the streets acting all cool and stuff. On one hand I can't touch them as a law-abiding citizen, on the other hand know that in the future, when they fill the job vacancies in cleaning companies and MacDonalds, they will greedily consume taxpayers' (us) dollars to buy toilet paper and other daily necessities they cannot afford.
For those who are wondering, yes this is elitism, but it is also a desire for justice. Why should we pay for the sins of those you squandered their youth? Who revelled and rotted away in youth without restraint and discipline? These burdens to society should just disappear..
And for the others who are quick to jump to conclusions, this train of thought does belong to me, but the terminology like "zha bor" are words which i find derogatory and would normally prefer not to use. They are simply there as references for my friends who use such terms within the same contexts.

Monday, March 17, 2008
"To emo or not to emo? +Report on DOTA"

Haha i'm fairly past the emo stage, it's not really emoing now but more like deep thought. After a while strong emotions fade with time..Oh well they will probably return soon enough, it has happened often enough to become cyclical..although it is nice being clear headed while it lasts.

Emo does have a nice side effect that leaves you hooked, the bitterness becomes somewhat like a motivational factor, albeit a shortlived one. It is like..becoming supercharged with rage..I have noticed that physical fitness improves by about 1.1~1.3 times during such periods. Seriously, I can run further, faster and do more pull ups :p

Just finished a game of DOTA, i did not really want to play, yong sheng persuaded me into joining. After just 2 weeks without constant practice my 'skills' have deteriorated, which i think is a good sign! Shows that I haven't been playing this cruddy game. If any one had a marketing strategy as good as how DOTA keeps its players hooked, they would be the richest man in the world. Seriously.

I mean, the more you win the more you want to play to enjoy the feeling of victory and continue the winning streak. The more you play to win the higher your chances of losing (simple statistics :D), unless of course you manage to improve every time you play, which under pub conditions is totally impossible. The more you lose the more you want to play to win the next game, and when you DO finally win the next game, we are back to square one. Tadaa, level 25 Dota Addict.

The most retarded thing is the in-game dialogue. Haha the game i just finished was a classic example. Allow me to describe what a classic DOTA conversation would be like :D
"eh you ch** bye noob sh** don't maphack (cheat) lar"
"knn you motherf***er, i see you maphack then i turn mine on la you ch**bye, so noob still say others"
"you noob sh**, noob den say lar, your mother ch**bye never teach you arh? "

Haha as you can see, DOTA players do not exactly have excellent grammar. I can safely say I rarely degrade myself to such meaningless and idiotic exchange of profanities. It might surprise you to know that despite DOTA being merely a game, there are actually real emotions and pride, with just a touch( overdose) of chauvinism behind these. People actually get ANGRY over DOTA, such immaturity tsk tsk.

Thus concludes my report on DOTA.

I wish to blog more about my EMOtions but will do it tomorrow after a good night's rest.

Sunday, March 2, 2008
"I'm bacck"

Wragh, bloody 2 week stint in fucking company wasted so much of my time. What a bunch of liars, actually not really a bunch, more like just the noobie monkey in charge of the whole project. Seriously, he looks like a monkey but is more twisted than my sense of humour. I mean he's not even cunning or sly or decieving la, he tries to smoke his way through so blatantly, like he thinks we are primary school..no..kindergarten kids eating out of his hands. Tsk, if you want to lie at least do it with finesse and grace, not like some noob who can't wipe his arse b'cos it's where his mouth is and there's too much crap flowing out of it. Ah well.. I believe in Karma (sutra)..what comes around goes around!
Ah well, I got my foldable bike! Wheee I love it muackz! It sometimes looks kinda nooby but the fact that it can be brought onto public transport more than makes up for it :p So i no longer have to buy a skateskooter because I like lego!
Eeyer I've been spending too much recently, gotta cut down! Guilty conscience..and no pay T.T I'm feeling pooorrrrr. *Enviously looks at Sherman's PS3 >.<..Haiz a bike is still more worth it!!!!
Wragh..Junyu said i'm fat..>.> Not my fault, my sportshoes were stolen..fat..broke..fat..broke..*falling into a blackhole of emotion*..fat..broke..fat..

Wednesday, February 6, 2008
"Whee I'm a DRIVER"

Haha okok not exactly, just got my provisional license two days ago. Even bought a traffic TYS for to prepare for the theory test! Hopefully can spam lessons from now on..Hmmm..
And yesterday, I went out with loh yong sheng, Hong yi and songjun! Haha damn funny! Wai Lumn told us to wear semi formal to the briefing and songjun ended up wearing corporate attire, haha and he is our group leader! Lol this job gets more and more amusing.
Went shopping after the briefing! Loh, Hy and I bought singlets and actually WORE them in marina square! Zomg so pai seh ah..stupid bastard :p challenged us to parade around in singlets or else he would brand us losers. Can't believe I fell for such a retarded challenge. Still, it was both exciting and intriguing at the same time! I must go train some more! :(
Then we went to Billy Bombers and had BnJ ice cream on waffles, was yummy, but soooo overpriced zzzzzz.

Saturday, January 26, 2008
"Putrid purpose"

It is so fucking sickening, every time someone looks for me, it's always because they want something FROM me. Demands demands demands, nobody looks for me, only for something i HAVE. Well F@#$ YOU ALL I SAY! WANT SOMETHING? GO GET ANOTHER SUPPLIER. I'M SICK AND TIRED OF "EH I WANT THOSE BOOKLETS", "EH I WANT (fill in blank)". What am I? Popular bookstore? ../.. What happened to, "eh wassup? whatchya doing now?", "how've you been lately?" CB F'ERS...trust you all to go straight to the point. "I want this, I want that."
and when i DON'T DO it, whine, complain, abuse the fact that i give in easily. Abuse the fact that I consciously am trying to be nice. Well very soon I want to drive my fist through something. Until then..

Today tio pangsehed by the NS people and Bobby >.> So I heard to shop alone..which wasn't really enjoyable because it was crowded and my blue card was almost empty. It was alright at first, then as the crowd starting building up, I got angry. Angry with the fact that I was alone. Nonono I wasn't angry at anyone, seriously no, we all have our own stuff to do anyways. But I was angry at the fact that I wound up like that. And it wasn't the first time it happened. What's wrong I wonder? I see people, ugly people, short people, fat people, thin people, poorly dressed people. And they all have other people with them. So why am I wandering Raffles Place alone? In fact, I got so sick of it I went to buy booze and stare into blank space in Raffles Hotel. Long Island Tea's nice when you drink it in small quantities...Why why why? What is this missing piece of the puzzle that has plagued me for so many years?
I wanted all the people in city hall to just disappear. the more I thought about it, the more and more ugly those people became. I wanted all the ugly people out there to disappear, to leave the whole place empty. Go somewhere else like in a box or something..