Tuesday, October 23, 2007
"It shouldn't be this way.."

Sometimes, I wonder, why did it have to be this way? tshhhk..everyone thinks that now and then i suppose. But seriously..why? I mean this world is seriously fucked up, nothing is the way it should be..then again, is it because I'm some inapt weird asshole who refuses to swim downstream into the bottomless pit of doom that is humanity? Or because they are all conformist assholes clumping together in a tight piece of shit that remains stuck up some giant ***hole? Then again, if the world went the way I wanted it to, some other unfortunate chap would be typing the exact same words I'm typing now. I know! I'm caught in a paradox, some kind of freakish nightmare where black is white, and white is black and grey is stained blood red! Maybe if i just point this imaginary gun at my heart..heh..just kidding, that would be a lousy way to die anyway. :p
Hmmm, I'm munching on ikan billis now (it's really salty >.<) and this last piece happens to be staring back at me..I wonder what it was thinking in the few hours or weeks that it lived, did it even think at all? The soul of an ikan billis..hmmm...oh well it is gone now. I just ate it, yum :D
7 more days to physics paper 3, I know, I should be studying, sigh but I feel like drawing more E.mo, how?
My head and heart are throbbing and I have this sudden impulse (change in momentum= Force x Time) to burn myself alive, actually not really burning. Fire only works on the surface. More like spontaneous combustion, every cell in my body simultaneously bursts into flame. Hmmm.. intriguing..